back

don't go, don't leave.
i stretch my
arms, fingertips, thoughts
to you.

don't go, please stay.
i close my
hands, eyes, mouth
around you.

don't go.

i need you here.
if not in person,
then in
thought.

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will i even make it?

am

do you need me?
am i necessary near?

do you know what i need?
what's worse than fear?

obligatories fall from your mouth,
ne'er hit my ear.

"what would i do without you?"
"without you i would die."

how about i do the dying.
your need will pass.
while my soul is out flying,
your need will pass.
those fingers won't be prying--
those feelings will pass.
-- i've closed the door, defying
all entry to this house of glass.

and while
your need will pass
for me
i'll lay in this grass
stiff
under this tree.

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nobody needs me.

couldn't i--

i wish to dance
to fly flutter free my toes in stardust,
in wind,
in the tangle of your thoughts.
in the recesses of time,
where dust gathers on forgotten memories.

let hands flow over flower-iotas,
soft velvet petal.
like the sound of a single violin
as i drag my finger along
the contours of your
spirit.

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i'm getting dangerous.
dangerous.
this is too dangerous.

why not--

do i not deserve it?
did i do something wrong?
i can't seem to find my way,
all these bodies in the throng.

is there something i can do?
do right now, tonight?
why can't i find a ____,
someone to hold me tight?

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not jealous of you, or you.
jealous of the experience.
all that i've missed.

this is one crappy, elementary writing, but its--